doubt.

            I can't stop him from coming to see me.

However much I pray, I plead, I beg and I believe, he comes.

Sometimes I know he’s coming. There’s the shiver of the back, the creeping dread, the sixth sense that says he’s around, although I can’t see him.…

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Untitled.pages

“Wide angle shot of an elevated train speeding through the Chicago skyline.” by Sawyer Bengtson on Unsplash

when i first walked
into that room, wondering whether
i would be accepted
seen
noticed
reported

we speak the same words yet they mean so different
we think the same ideas yet
and yet
either the world was not ready for these ideas or i was not ready for the
arch we walked under
space jam

i don’t remember
i can’t remember
i don’t want to remember
who it is that i was
to become
this

i wanted to get away from my past
my roots
but it’s funny, isn’t it, for the things that i want to leave behind
are exactly the things that i can’t
define
delinate
describe
control
alternative facts
delete

breathing
what
why
who
no
no
no
no
hospital and er
and health insurance
and never telling anybody
it was bad
really bad

we kissed
it was good
really good

it was such a
racket
square
frisbee
and then suddenly, too many of
us
crisis
exploded
hiring more faculty
growing program

then bay area
san francisco
design
technology
journalism
northwestern
campus
44 Montgomery
it rains for weeks and weeks and then it’s
curries and paninis and sushis and Tenderloin and Union Square and Nob Hill and the Ferry Building and the MUNI and the BART and the Civic Center and Kearny and Powell and 38 Geary and Golden Gate Park and Crissy Field and Golden Gate Bridge and E Embarcadero and J Church and Coit Tower

come and go
come and go
upstairs
are you one of mine now?…

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Venmo and me

Photo by Juja Han on Unsplash

I’ve recently been reading quite a few news articles about the money transfer app Venmo. Most of them have focused on how the app is used by young people to facilitate financial transactions between them, and how this PayPal-owned enterprise appears to be developing a social network based on money transfers between friends.…

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