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Life

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Now both of them are annoyed — with me. (Like it’s my fault.)</p> <div class="wpcnt"> <div class="wpa"> <span class="wpa-about">Advertisements</span> <div class="u belowpost"> <div style="padding-bottom:15px;width:300px;height:250px;float:left;margin-right:5px;margin-top:0px;"> <div id="atatags-2-5efe33294f345"> <script type="text/javascript"> __ATA.cmd.push(function() { __ATA.initSlot('atatags-2-5efe33294f345', { collapseEmpty: 'before', sectionId: '1478321871', location: 120, width: 300, height: 250 }); }); </script> </div> </div> <div style="padding-bottom:15px;width:300px;height:250px;float:left;margin-top:0px;"> <div id="atatags-3-5efe33294f350"> <script type="text/javascript"> __ATA.cmd.push(function()</script></div></div></div></div></div></p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2020/02/23/24318/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “”</span></a>

Life

<figure class="wp-block-image size-large is-resized"><img data-attachment-id="24282" data-permalink="https://leoji.blog/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-img_5657-jpg/" data-orig-file="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?fit=3024%2C4032&ssl=1" data-orig-size="3024,4032" data-comments-opened="0" data-image-meta="{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0"}" data-image-title="crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg" data-image-description data-medium-file="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?fit=225%2C300&ssl=1" data-large-file="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?fit=768%2C1024&ssl=1" src="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=650%2C866&ssl=1" alt="A photograph of Troy on his cat bed just as I woke him up." class="wp-image-24282 jetpack-lazy-image" width="650" height="866" data-recalc-dims="1" data-lazy-srcset="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?w=3024&ssl=1 3024w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=225%2C300&ssl=1 225w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=768%2C1024&ssl=1 768w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=1152%2C1536&ssl=1 1152w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=1536%2C2048&ssl=1 1536w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=900%2C1200&ssl=1 900w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=600%2C800&ssl=1 600w, 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data-orig-file="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?fit=3024%2C4032&ssl=1" data-orig-size="3024,4032" data-comments-opened="0" data-image-meta="{"aperture":"0","credit":"","camera":"","caption":"","created_timestamp":"0","copyright":"","focal_length":"0","iso":"0","shutter_speed":"0","title":"","orientation":"0"}" data-image-title="crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg" data-image-description="" data-medium-file="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?fit=225%2C300&ssl=1" data-large-file="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?fit=768%2C1024&ssl=1" src="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=650%2C866&ssl=1" alt="A photograph of Troy on his cat bed just as I woke him up." class="wp-image-24282" width="650" height="866" srcset="https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?w=3024&ssl=1 3024w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=225%2C300&ssl=1 225w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=768%2C1024&ssl=1 768w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=1152%2C1536&ssl=1 1152w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=1536%2C2048&ssl=1 1536w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=900%2C1200&ssl=1 900w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=600%2C800&ssl=1 600w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=300%2C400&ssl=1 300w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=150%2C200&ssl=1 150w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?resize=1200%2C1600&ssl=1 1200w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?w=1920&ssl=1 1920w, https://i2.wp.com/leoji.blog/wp-content/uploads/2020/02/crop-0-0-3024-4032-0-IMG_5657.jpg?w=2880&ssl=1 2880w" sizes="(max-width: 650px) 100vw, 650px" data-recalc-dims="1" /></noscript></figure> <p>He wants to know why I woke him up. (It was for this photo.)</p>

What is love?

Life / Writing

<pre><code> <em>“What is love?” I whispered, my question barely rising above the dull hum of the heater. I could feel the chilly air nipping at my exposed toes. He'd turned on the heating but didn't close the window. </em> </code></pre> <p><em>He sighed. “That’s a short question with a long answer.”</em></p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/11/19/what-is-love/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “What is love?”</span></a></p>

doubt.

Life / Poetry

<pre><code> I can't stop him from coming to see me. </code></pre> <p>However much I pray, I plead, I beg and I believe, he comes.</p> <p>Sometimes I know he’s coming. There’s the shiver of the back, the creeping dread, the sixth sense that says he’s around, although I can’t see him.</p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/11/12/doubt/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “doubt.”</span></a></p>

When making friends means being exploited

Life / Writing

<p class="has-drop-cap">I remember one scene particularly well: It was in Ms. Brown’s biology class, and it must have been Year 9, because I didn’t have a class with her before then, but Simon wasn’t in my class afterwards. </p> <p class="has-background has-cyan-bluish-gray-background-color">This is part three of my ongoing project to write out my personal history in an effort to untangle the emotional history and stressors of my life.</p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/10/07/when-making-friends-means-being-exploited/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “When making friends means being exploited”</span></a></p>

My first trip to CAPS, then the ER

LGBTQ / Life / Writing

<p>“Hi, my name is Leo. I’m a student at Northwestern University. And I suffer from serious depression-like symptoms.”</p> <p class="has-background has-cyan-bluish-gray-background-color">This is part two of my ongoing project to write out my personal history in an effort to untangle the emotional history and stressors of my life.</p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/10/02/my-first-trip-to-caps-then-the-er/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “My first trip to CAPS, then the ER”</span></a></p>

Three, two, one: What do I do when I fall in love with another boy?

LGBTQ / Life / Writing

<p>I was 13 when I first thought about killing myself.</p> <p>I know it was that age only because I remember a specific detail that couldn’t have occurred when I got any older. After my sister, Lisa, moved to college when I was 14, I left the bedroom at the back of our third-floor 3-bedroom apartment, overlooking the fence, and into the larger bedroom that used to be hers.</p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/09/29/three-two-one-what-do-i-do-when-i-fall-in-love-with-another-boy/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “Three, two, one: What do I do when I fall in love with another boy?”</span></a></p>

Multiplicity

Life / Writing

<p>“I don’t feel like anyone could understand me without knowing more about me than most people do,” I texted. “I usually do not have the time to explain the about-150 years of geopolitical and sociocultural history of the U.S., Europe and Asia and how that impacts me.”</p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/08/01/multiplicity/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “Multiplicity”</span></a></p>

Adulting 101

Life

<pre><code> I've never really understood the concept of an age of majority. The basic premise, as it was explained to me by "grown-ups," is that young people are not psychologically developed enough to make lasting decisions about their futures, so we -- as a society -- have stepped in to protect our kids from their own naivety and stupidity.</code></pre></p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/07/27/adulting-101/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “Adulting 101”</span></a>

The things we’re not taught

Life

<pre><code> <blockquote>In a society that profits from your self doubt, liking yourself is a rebellious act. </code></pre> <p>— Someone, somewhere, but the Internet has mangled it enough that I don’t know who or where to source it</p> <p>I get contemplative every time I see people around me go through major life events: picking college, graduating, quitting their jobs or getting engaged.</p><p> <a href="https://leoji.blog/2018/07/22/the-things-were-not-taught-2/" class="read-more">▸ Read more. <span class="screen-reader-text"> “The things we’re not taught”</span></a></p>